Year of the Diary *raised eyebrow*

I remember when my diary used to look like this>>>

 <<<<<<<< And now it looks like this.

I dont know when or how life got like this but it is OVERWHELMING.NET 

Anyway. Exciting times to come. Performances. Fashion shoots wid my dargelles. Best friends weddings. Womens conferences. Its not bad to be busy. Just make time for God and He will make time for what you need to do. Hmmm. I fink I just realised my problem. REoccuring problem.

Blogs are weird. Im writing them. And theyre public. But its kinda like I dont want anyone to read them.

Why does EVERY solution to EVERY problem come down to 'your relationship with God'? Becaaause we are made for that reason. It makes so much sense when you actually clock it.

Word vomit can get you into trouble. Think n process before you speak unless someones about to be run over and you have to get their attention

*thinking*

that would be bad. If you stopped to think I mean. Reminds me of Grey's anatomy. I cant watch that show anymore it reminds me of death, but not mine. Other peoples...speakin of. My uncle emailed me when I woke up, its his birthday, I propa miss him. and Malaysia. This country's very wrong sometimes. But u cant be mad boo.

Happy birthday Uncle Rayray xxxxx

Sometimes you just have to be gay...

Oh and PLUS...

I love the people around me right now and I hope I always will...


Jendella.is.the.man. I respect her hardworking character and consistent creative flow. Its quite inspirational. Hopefully she wont see this and grow a big head. But I love her alot..wish I met her earlier in life.

Jason is my almond. I love him to bits. Never met anyone like him. Best friends forever. Gay.

Jade is another best friend of mine for different reasons. I cant believe Im her chief bridesmaid. Weve been through it but will always be friends. Look out for Jay Marsh Fashion cos shes a mastermind with a needle n thread.

is there some sort of pattern here...No more J's lol.

I heart Child of Zion..my strength, my love, my family. Nearly a year on..they are an amazing group of people.

Cash n Nash. MWAAAAAAAAAAAHHH. They know what it is. I appreciate them because they are there for me. With no fancy words or pressure, they just are there. Two girls I could never leave stranded on the road in the middle of the night. Tashman to the rescue :)

I feel guilty when I dont mention my family in my loves. The love is so much that I dont even notice it. Dont really know what I would do without dem soldiers.

Thats quite enough of that gayness. Thank U God for them. really. thank U sooo much for loving me through them.

xx

Anyone else blog when they are stressed?

Sitting at my desk @ work listening to:

With JUME3E's bio nearly finished next to me...pink BB with no led flashing and waist belt on the floor cos I feel sick.

Blah.net/mydaysaresolong..regardless. I trust in Him. Was reading Romans 8 this morning and everytime i come to the realisation that there is no more condemnation in Christ, I feel sooo unworthy and humbled by the love that God has for me. That scripture also talks about the Spirit n Jesus interceding for children of God...'groaning' ESV version says. Mad deep. I am blessed to be alive. You know when u feel a way like SO overly humbled and u want everyone else to feel exactly the same way...or not? maybe thats just me.


I love music. But I dont listen to it that much. Funny but it makes me appreciate it when I do listen to it. I dunno, Im a passive listener I guess. Give me some Miles Davis or George Benson anyday...sweeet duude..or some William Mcdowell or Ron Kenoly. Music takes me to a time I never knew. I didnt exist before 1988 but my favourite period of music is 70s, 80s..blame Uncle, Popadums and jazzfm every day before n after school. lol.


blog over. Im less stressed now

The live music

Music last night was fun...discovering with Mr Thomas. It was his guitar that started it:

Pray for this Nation

Something happened to my friend the other day. It was very upsetting but it opened my eyes to the world we live in. The youth is full of pride and reputation with cold and broken hearts looking for love :(

I like writing in light blue and writing in full sentences. Looks good. Pray for this Nation is under construction but I pray that in Gods time it will unfold.

Tunday's albums good, so is Victizzle's, I just dont have it. Excited about music, live and recorded. Should be doing some technicians work this week when I feel a bit better but I dont wana hold up the project. I feel normal, just trying to make up my mind and heart to be fully for Him, surrendered to Him. Vol II soon come woooh! Actually excited, I have heard nothing from the mixtape. Certain man have gone to Dubai today :( I hope they have a really good blessed time. I slyly miss them. I love my family and extended family in and out of annoyance. God had blessed me truly. I was a different person last year. Gonna read Ecclesiastes now (hopefully I actually will).